Wow... it has been ages bruhhhh XD the last I posted here was like 3 years ago, idk man I forgot BlogSpot still existed until now hahahahaha ; I have sooooo much to tell here since it really has been so long :') sooooo lets get right into it! I will just split whatever I want to story into few parts so it wont look so messy


Degree Life: 

Previously, I took my diploma in Culinary Arts and yes I've already graduated on 16th November 2019. Then I took like a few months break to think about what should I do next. I thought of continuing the same course but back then, I had doubts and I started to lose interest too :') it took me so much of consideration and I almost thought of like not wanting to get a degree or study again because honestly, academic isn't my thing at all from the beginning. Then out of nowhere, I thought about taking Hotel Management. I went through the program structure and its' subjects; immediately I decided to pursue my degree with that course XD I have no knowledge with that course and why I decided to take a different course but in the same industry, it is because at least I have both of the courses knowledge and it will beneficial for me when I go to work in the future. 


Jan 2020 was the month and year that I started my degree life as a Hotel Management student and I have the option to choose 2 majors; Tourism Management and Event Management. I chose to have my degree majoring in Tourism Management! So far, everything went smoothly. The only thing sucks is how my studies are all online now and honestly, I cried and got depressed a lot. I skipped meals, classes and do my assignments last minute. Sometimes I dont even understand what my lecturer taught during class but I had to go through it despite those struggles I'm facing. It was all worth it and now, I dont have to go classes anymore!


Internship Life:

I'm supposed to have my internship on July 2021 but.... the hotels & resorts that I've applied, rejected me :') and some didn't give me any feedbacks or replied my email on my application. I do get interviews but got rejected or postponed. That time we're still facing covid soooo I decided to deferred my final semester and have my internship next year (Jan 2022) HOWEVER XD I applied to one of the newest hotels in Utropolis (actually quite shocked bcs it's just next to my university) annndddd I got a call from the hotel XD surprisingly, they immediately accept me to be their trainee there and I was scheduled to start my internship on the 1st November, which was really early than my actual internship date. I agreed to the offer as I would love to start my life once again LMFAO I feel so lifeless that time and just waiting for my internship to come XD So yes, I'm currently doing my 6 months of internship in that hotel. As for my department, I decided to be a trainee in the Housekeeping and Finance department, 3 months respectively. I wanted to try Front Office but.... nahhhh XD muka takleh nak tebal, there's no way I will face the guest hahahahaha


It's February now and I'm supposed to be in the Finance department already but something happened and my supervisor asked permission to my finance manager to borrow me for another month LMFAO it was really hilarious that time since I was there too XD my finance manager is fine with it so yeah, I will be in the housekeeping  for 4 months and in finance for 2 months only, which I'm actually happy bcs I really enjoyed being in the housekeeping department and I dont regret it. 


I was trained to be a housekeeping supervisor since I was there since before the pre-opening of the hotel. It was tough at first, my management and planning was upside down and I got stressed out XD especially that the room attendants I had were abit slow but as time passes by, I got used to it and made improvements thanks to my hsk manager and also my supervisor. I really enjoy this working life as it makes me improve myself and learn new stuff every single day. I also planned to work here while I wait for my convocation, hopefully this year everything will go accordingly.


Mental Health:

My current mental health is stable now, thank God :') I'm so proud of myself for going through so much of ups and downs; still surviving and never giving up when things didnt go through as planned. I'm so happy to see myself happy again and not crying or depressed like before. I rarely feel hurt with people's words or action bcs I became honest to people and people too end up be honest with me. I'm not so worried with my future as well as I told myself to plan ahead since last year and I'm happy to see that I have achieved some of my goals that I have yet to achieve before this. Nothing much to say about my mental health but I hope this stays this way until I get older because I really love to see myself being stable physically and mentally.


Love Life:

HAHAHAHAHA IM STILL SINGLE YALLS XD it's been 2 years already and honestly, I have become quite heartless because of love. Love is a beautiful feeling but at the same time, it's scary. People changed you, your heart and the way you see love. I almost want to hate love hahahaha bcs I got tired of getting betrayed, used, cheated and lied to; and I dont think I deserved those??? I am worth so much more than to get treated badly; which is why I decided to stay single and love myself first before loving someone else. After all that happened, I'm still not ready to let someone new to take care of me, my heart and my love. I'm still scared to get hurt for the same reason but I know that I can't avoid that.